My eldest daughter, Heidi, wrote this poem back in 2009. She only sent it to me recently, saying that she wasn't sure it was "good enough". I have no words to describe how precious it is...
My
mother was a girl once.
Her
hair plaited in braids,
Bandy-legs
below baby-doll hem.
My
mother was a girl.
Once
she ran the length of the train
In
a superman costume.
My
mother was not always a mother.
Her
womb woke and,
As
the plane hung suspended in the impossibility of air,
An
egg split, and split.
My
mother was a girl in a cornflower dress
As
she walked an aisle.
Swelling
beneath her bodice.
Her
knees still grazed, she played
With
the edges of ribboned plaits.
My
mother,
Feet
swollen with summer and expectation,,
Watched
the mare expect her foal.
We
made a bower.
We
began a conversation in those lonely times
When
you rubbed and sang the world.
The
beauty of the rising dust:
Her
husband returns to ease
Fatalistic
claustrophobia.
The
sweaty panic of loneliness.
And
fear
Of
failing,
Rising
like funnel-webs
From
the hot, Sydney loam.
My
mother and her child shared a private world.
They
held their secrets as stones at the bottom of dry puddle.
Waiting
for rain.
When
you held me you found no metamorphosis.
Instead,
all those pebble secrets
Turned
into the stars.
We
wet them with our stories
So
that they could guide us.
And
they do.
There.
Between you and me, we grew each other up.
March, 2009